It is Mom’s birthday today. With the exception of last year, I haven’t been with her on her birthday since 2003. These are moments when life truly sucks and when nothing makes sense. These are moments when I wonder what I am after. What do I really want in life? If I am headed in completely wrong direction?
I really do want to live closer to my folks. Somewhere where I can see them and meet them regularly. And that was the plan while we were still in Bangalore. We had plans of moving to Delhi or NCR to be closer to both mine as well as Aman’s family. And as luck had it and with the turn of events, we landed here in Singapore. After having turned down multiple such relocating opportunities in the past, we shocked ourselves and people close to us by deciding to move to Singapore.
If you ask me, I wouldn’t be able to pinpoint as to why we decided to move here. It was like we spoke about it at dinner table and then slept on the idea. Next morning when both of us woke up we knew that the decision had been made and that we would be moving to Singapore. I guess it was destined. We plan to live here for a while before heading back to India to be closer to folks. That’s the thought I have in mind but planning too much in advance has never worked for us before so we will take things as they come.
So its mom’s special day today and although she is acting very cool about it, I know she misses Neha, Aman and me. I know she recalls her last year’s birthday and smiles fondly at the fun we had. Such is my Mom, ever smiling, never complaining. She is expressive but in a super positive way. There is a longing in her conversations but she never cribs. She has never made us feel guilty for choices we have made, however right or wrong. And this is one among the million reasons which make her so special.
So here is wishing mumma a very happy birthday! Love you!